19 Months and My Struggle with motherhood

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In my heart this week:

My baby, my child, my life, I don’t ever want my Kaylee to grow up. She is at the perfect stage in life right now where she is constantly learning something new each day. Purely innocent, I want to treasure it all. The other day I read an article on Huffington Post about a 14 year old girl that was charged with first degree murder and aggravated child abuse. A life so innocent, the girl’s life has not even started yet, but closing to an end. She probably didn't have anyone to turn to and thought she could get away with hiding her pregnancy. My heart aches for the family. Today on the radio, the discussion was about birth control battle on a program that distributes Plan B contraception and birth control to high school girls. It got me very worried that one day I will have to have the talk with Kaylee. I am glad that I still have so many more wonderful years to spend with my baby girl. Each day I try to steer away from all the negative news, but sometimes you just can't hide from it. I just have to learn to stay positive and realize that there are things you can’t control. We can only educate our children so they know what's right and wrong.

Last month my husband took Kaylee to her 18 month appointment and we found out she has a very minor anemia. Anemia occurs when a person does not have the normal amount of red blood cells or if the person is low on hemoglobin. She lacks iron in her diet because she refuses to eat her solids. Although our doctor said it's very minor, she will be fine as long as she takes her iron supplement each day. I wasn't able to be there at her appointment, but when I heard that news, I panicked, as any mother would do. My heartbreaks each time I hear something is wrong with my child. I am consider myself a worrier and constantly concerned about my baby's safety. Kaylee loves her milk bottle. She loves it too much and therefore she is lacking her iron in her diet. She is doing better now, now that we have restricted her from the bottle.

Sorry this post is a little deep and different since I normally share pretty pictures and pretty outfits; life is not always pretty and beautiful. The great thing about life is we are put to a new challenge each day and we just have to learn to embrace it. Each day is a gift.

Welcome every morning with a smile. Look on the new day as another special gift from your Creator, another golden opportunity to complete what you were unable to finish yesterday. Be a self-starter. Let your first hour set the theme of success and positive action that is certain to echo through your entire day. Today will never happen again. Don't waste it with a false start or no start at all. You were not born to fail. Og Mandino

If you made it this far, thanks for reading :) On a happier note, I am so glad it's Friday! Happy 19 months to my lil munchkin. Mommy love you so so much!

No more pictures Mommy! 

Hope you have a great weekend, thanks for letting me share my thoughts! I promise more pretty pictures next week :)

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  1. Thanks for sharing your honesty about motherhood. I appreciate that since I know personally that parenting isn't truly a "roses sunshine and puppies" experience all the time. We do worry. We feel angry and sad when we read/her about stories of children on the net/TV/etc. I hope that we can focus on the things we can control -- like how we raise our children, what we teach them -- and let God do the rest. Sorry to hear K might be slightly anemic. I'm sure it's pretty common in breastfed babies. Nevertheless, hope she starts eating her solids to make-up for it. Have a great weekend! K's a cutie pie and really oh so grown up (in a good way, good job!)

  2. Sorry to hear this news, but glad that Kaylee is doing better now after starting her iron supplement. Our 15 month old has been refusing solids lately and wanting his bottle 24/7. Most days, I try to limit his milk intake and push the solids, but some days, when I'm tired/stressed/frustrated, I let him win. Your post has reminded me to continue to be viligant about limiting his milk intake.

    Your little one is absolutely gorgeous. A little model in the making!

  3. Happy 19th month birthday to Kaylee! Hope the slight problem with anemia goes away. I'm sure it will. She looks so cute, i love the way you dress her up!! On a serious note, i totally know what you mean. I look at these stories and i get so scared because this world is so scary when you look at it from a parent's point of view. But you are right somethings are not in our hands, we can only do our best with this role we were destined to play in these little ones lives. I often worry about preparing my daughter against being bullied or hurt by anyone, but then i also realize that the one that bullies is also someone's child, so i also need to teach my daughter to always be kind and never hurt anyone intentionally! Sigh. It is a tough job, raising little ones! Luckily we have a bit of time before we have to give them all the 'talks'.

  4. It's a tough world to raise children in. It always breaks my heart to read such horrific stories. But like you said, we have to focus on the positives.

    What apps do you use for Kaylee??

    Hope you guys have a great weekend.

  5. Thanks for sharing. I feel that's what my mother goes through. She's constantly telling to about my health. Baby K is very cute.

  6. your photos of her make my heart melt every time!

  7. Happy 19th month birthday baby!! She will be fine soon. Our 3 year old too loves milk and recently we've been asked to switch to 2% from whole milk. After the switch Ive noticed her appetite is much better as she is not too full coz of milk.

  8. Hi Yvonne, I stumbled upon your blog via Nelah's. Just followed you via Twitter too. I understand your predicament. I think once a woman becomes a mother, she will never ever stop worrying about her child/children. Kaylee is so precious and adorable.

    I'm attending a parenting course at my church. It's a such relief to be given some guidance and a chance to talk with moms who have older kids. The challenges are so different at every phase.

  9. She's a beautiful little girl. Thanks for sharing this. I'll be praying. ♥

  10. i loved this post sweetie, straight from your heart! so crazy to see how fast they grow up!

    Sandy a la Mode

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  12. great post! I am about to become a mom myself (7 more weeks!) and I have no idea what to expect...I am sure everyday is a new learning experience!
    My dr. said at my last dr.'s appointment that I too was anemic- I started taking iron pills... I think it is b/c I don't eat meat that I became anemic...I am also now on a new diet called Isagenix (totally safe for kids too btw!) let me know if you want more info about it!

  13. Baby K is very lucky to have a wonderful mother like you. Worrying comes with the territory, but just know that you are doing your best! Happy 19 mos (can't believe another month went by so fast) to your sweet girl! :)

    xo, Yi-chia
    Always Maylee

  14. as a mother myself, i've learned that we always worry about our kids in every phase of their life. once they overcome that phase, we "forget" about it and move on to worry/obsess about their next phase!! it's exhausting!

    i remember when my kayla had such a difficult time with solid food. she had such a sensitive gag reflex that she would throw up her entire meal if she burped wrong or whatever she was eating didn't go down right. for that very reason, i kept her on pureed foods far longer than a typical kid and it killed me every time she threw up her entire meal. that was one of the most stressful times ever. but, as she grew, she overcame that obstacle and now she eats like a machine that it's hard to remember she once had such a difficult time.

    we all worry as mothers; we will never stop. even when they're 30 and out of our house, we will always worry about them.

    i hope things are well with your kaylee now.

  15. What an incredibly heart-felt post Yvonne. I hear you. We're mothers and it's our job to worry!
    I'm concerned for my Ava now...she drinks a ridiculous amount of milk (still!) and is 2 and a half. I should cut it. :(
    The pictures are ridiculously cute!! xo


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